till today, i cannot be sure if che-works is a noun or verb, but here is a place i no longer belong, i had good times crusading but now i'm off to shimming at wordpress.

i want to say, i have a name card now!

four years ago and in the youth of my youth, i skipped work often to hang around videoez. i ate alot of prata, watched a lot of planes fly by. four years ago, i had my first love. to get to her, i had to go pass lentor, which i thought nothing of, of course, lentor was quick. four years ago, i was terribly disappointed because my grades could not bring me to where i thought i wanted to go to.

so three years ago and with plenty of time at hand, i wrote about two tortoises which i named after my friends. three years ago, i was busy with penning the drops of my thoughts, i attempted a chinese poem. three years ago, i was upset over a girl. ju told me that love is when you play with cats. three years ago, i was dragging myself to school at MI, sleeping my classes away, i go home in the afternoons with bus rides that travel through lentor which i immensely enjoy, and i always listened to foo fighter's walking after you when the bus turns out from bradell. three years ago, i was not doing anything fulfilling for my life, and i still did not know where it is that i wanted to go.

two years ago, i went crazy on nuggets from mcdonalds, but nuggets was nuggests instead. two years ago, i was writing my essay for my graduation and had schedule myself to 750 words a day, so that i could have it finished in four days. two years ago, i again travelled by lentor but i no longer listened to the foo fighters. two years ago, i visited a mangrove swamp and ran out of it because of jay-walking lizards, and this green snake that i never really did see but was nevertheless still terrifed of. i also had my first steak two years ago. two years ago, i was not doing anything productive for my life. i procrastinated, fell in love, got upset again, fell out of love, experienced true friendship, got to where i wanted to go, did what i wanted to do, but still had not achieved anything.

one year ago, i wrote endlessly about the skies, the clouds and the rain. one year ago, i had yu sheng on my birthday, and is when i realized that i cannot resist japanese food. one year ago, i was a 'young punk', which i refuse to acknowledge. it was also the year i started fiddling with my slr, and even from one year ago, i can still hear the distinct sound when the film rolls over. one year ago, lentor was forgotten. i fell in love again and had the longest relationship i ever had. that year i lived and worked in the company of books, feeling so belonged that i did not want to leave it for anything better. it was also the year where i took the biggest leap, decided to stop schooling and head for the working world. for the better of myself, it was one of the best decisions i made, it gave way to the growth that i had been earnestly looking for four years ago.

this year began with a challenge i never imaged would arrive so quickly. this year i am looking to be reassigned up a tier from last year. this year, i will forget the achievement and pride from last year and set myself a higher standard to reach. but this year, i will not forget those four years that passed, they are the bridge that paved a path to the other side. i do not know what this side has in store, but i will not fear. four years have molded me, i will not have them to waste. having all that i have now, i will have more in time to come. time is no longer in between or after.

my time is now.

my fabulous work environment:

1. nuclear fission
2. getting front size 36-ed
3. 12 hours work days
4. blood on my hands
5. losing money at in-between
6. friday/saturday nights of mahjong
7. losing sleep
8. thinking about my birthday
9. fantasizing about mee siam, mee rebus and popiah
10. blood in my heart
11. picking up my guitar, picking strings but not remembering what song it is
12. not going to the gym
13. nicky scare
14. exit music
15. once upon a time in china
16. blood on my feet
17. if it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad
18. helping to make pineapple tarts, almond and ghee cookies
19. need steamboat
20. pressure

goodbye miserable january, i wouldn't miss you.